Turtle

Forgot to add this to my last post so i figured i might as well do it now while its still saved as a draft.

This is the 2nd face plate i'm currently sculpting. Actually the sketch for this doll came way before the bear. I just happened to sculpt the bear first. Its going to be a turtle when its done lol haven't decided what i'm going to do for its shell yet.

In terms of casting these in resin i'm currently gathering the funds for some mold making supplies. I'm not sure how long it'll take me but things are definitely moving along at a somewhat steady pace. lol I've spent too much time working on this to not complete it.

I'm also looking for something to use as a core for hollow joints that wont crumble in a pressure pot. The channels are quite small so finding something that will work has been so challenging. Right now i'm thinking of maybe using brass rods, knitting needles or maybe even plastic lollipop sticks. I don't have the luxury to experiment with mold making so there is really no room for errors or wasted molds :( i really cant afford it.  I feel like if i can make good molds for the body then everything will work out.

Revisiting past projects

So i'm currently in the process of refining one of my sculpts and preparing it for the mold making process. :D I'm actually going to see about making some artisan cast copies so i can have something more resilient than air dry clay to play with and maybe some copies for anyone who might be interested in owning this doll.

I was originally going to get this professionally cast but
it 's just too expensive for me. Maybe one day when i'm able to raise the funds i'll be able to get this professionally cast, till then :D this is my diy designer toy  project.

Short term goals.

So I've been thinking a lot about my career these past few days and have come up with a few short term goals to hopefully help move things along. My portfolio is basically shit at the moment too so i need to create some pieces to help beef things up. LOL I've come to the conclusion that i need to have at least 50 solid designs in there by December. I also need to paint more. I feel like i'm loosing whatever skills i might have learned at uni and need to start practicing a lot more. I have a lot of paints just need to get some canvases and good quality paper and i'm good to go. Solo shows are so intriguing to me these days and i would love to have one or at least know how to apply for one by this time next year.

So in terms of short term goals by December i'd like to have a beefy portfolio, more paintings, and a few completed sculptural pieces (doll prototypes mostly).

By this time next year i would like to be more self sufficient. Be more comfortable with selling my artwork and know more about art galleries and how they work.

Al in all i would like to learn more about and be well on my way to becoming a full time artist.

Baby sculpt W.I.P

Started working on this sculpt the other day. It has ears now so i guess it looks a bit different from this pic. I'm not entirely sure what to do with its body and limbs yet since this is my first one lol hopefully things come out ok. There was a period where this face was looking hideous and i was really worried that it'll be ugly but now i feel like its passable. To me it recognizable as a baby so i'm happy with it for now.

Sorry about the crappy picture. I took it with my phone before adding ears last night.

Which way to go next?

Trying to find some direction in my life. Something definitely needs to change because i dont think i will be able to function the way things are much longer.

I went to school for illustration because i love art and and everything art related. I dont think i will ever be happy doing anything else. Finished all my classes in the summer of 2012 but i really cant graduate because i havent been able to pay my final bill. That's the one thing keeping me away from my BFA degree. Then my school loan bills have started coming in. Every time i get one now i just look at it laugh and store it away somewhere. Not to mention the fact that i'm scared to check the mail theses days cause it seems like theres always someone out there i owe some money. Money. It seems like thats the root of most of my problems these days.

I currently work for a nursing agency (lol dont even get me started on why this is so wrong for me), have been for 5 years now, MY GOSH TIME REALLY FLIES THOUGH! Its kinda a dead end job. There is no room for growth, no raises, shifts aren't really guaranteed either lol and sometimes when you do go to work your check might not be guaranteed either. I've had instances where my check has been up to 3 weeks late. And then it isn't a lot of money. I'm literally living from pay check to pay check. Once i pay my half of the rent, my phone bill and (if i'm able to) my bus pass fare everything all my funds are gone (literally $1 in the bank account kind of gone) and i start all over again for the next month. My only saving grace is that i dont have to pay for food lol cause if i did i would surely be dead by now.

Something definitely needs to change. Its really hard to keep my head up these days but rather than be depressed and cry about all the issues i'm currently facing i think i'm just going to work hard on figuring out what needs to happen in order to improve my current situation. Hopefully i find my career in the process lol cause right now its basically non existent.

Intro of sorts

Decided to start this blog as a way of getting things down or rather out of my head. LOL  i think way to much so i want to try blogging as a way of keeping things from driving me crazy.