Pregnancy vs. Art

WOW I HAVEN'T POSTED ANYTHING IN A WHILE!!!

Basically just been in and out of a daze for the past few weeks. Worried about my health in terms of my baby's health. Sometimes I wish i had a scope or something I could use to watch whats going on in there. lol everything is sore and half the time I feel sick but its all good as long as the baby is healthy and the doctors say everything's ok then i'm good.

I find that the bigger i get the harder it is to sit for long stretches of time lol then i have horrible posture so it just makes things a lot worse. I still push through the discomfort sometimes though. Ugh I swear it can be so painful sometimes but meah. Anyway I was able to complete the prototype for a chibi bunny sculpt. I drew out my plans and roughly outlined where i'd like the joints to be placed.

Sculpted the doll in super sculpey the proceeded to work on the junk cast. I'm now in the process of tweaking bits and pieces then on to my final molds. Looking forward to finishing this.

Short term goals.

So I've been thinking a lot about my career these past few days and have come up with a few short term goals to hopefully help move things along. My portfolio is basically shit at the moment too so i need to create some pieces to help beef things up. LOL I've come to the conclusion that i need to have at least 50 solid designs in there by December. I also need to paint more. I feel like i'm loosing whatever skills i might have learned at uni and need to start practicing a lot more. I have a lot of paints just need to get some canvases and good quality paper and i'm good to go. Solo shows are so intriguing to me these days and i would love to have one or at least know how to apply for one by this time next year.

So in terms of short term goals by December i'd like to have a beefy portfolio, more paintings, and a few completed sculptural pieces (doll prototypes mostly).

By this time next year i would like to be more self sufficient. Be more comfortable with selling my artwork and know more about art galleries and how they work.

Al in all i would like to learn more about and be well on my way to becoming a full time artist.

Which way to go next?

Trying to find some direction in my life. Something definitely needs to change because i dont think i will be able to function the way things are much longer.

I went to school for illustration because i love art and and everything art related. I dont think i will ever be happy doing anything else. Finished all my classes in the summer of 2012 but i really cant graduate because i havent been able to pay my final bill. That's the one thing keeping me away from my BFA degree. Then my school loan bills have started coming in. Every time i get one now i just look at it laugh and store it away somewhere. Not to mention the fact that i'm scared to check the mail theses days cause it seems like theres always someone out there i owe some money. Money. It seems like thats the root of most of my problems these days.

I currently work for a nursing agency (lol dont even get me started on why this is so wrong for me), have been for 5 years now, MY GOSH TIME REALLY FLIES THOUGH! Its kinda a dead end job. There is no room for growth, no raises, shifts aren't really guaranteed either lol and sometimes when you do go to work your check might not be guaranteed either. I've had instances where my check has been up to 3 weeks late. And then it isn't a lot of money. I'm literally living from pay check to pay check. Once i pay my half of the rent, my phone bill and (if i'm able to) my bus pass fare everything all my funds are gone (literally $1 in the bank account kind of gone) and i start all over again for the next month. My only saving grace is that i dont have to pay for food lol cause if i did i would surely be dead by now.

Something definitely needs to change. Its really hard to keep my head up these days but rather than be depressed and cry about all the issues i'm currently facing i think i'm just going to work hard on figuring out what needs to happen in order to improve my current situation. Hopefully i find my career in the process lol cause right now its basically non existent.

Intro of sorts

Decided to start this blog as a way of getting things down or rather out of my head. LOL  i think way to much so i want to try blogging as a way of keeping things from driving me crazy.